Sunday, May 27, 2012

Clickable links? My-oh-my this world is craz-ay.

Hey so I just found a blog that I thought I'd recommend... It's called the PetiteElefant which I'm linking.... HERE: CLICK ME I"M WONDERFUL! Seriously though, this place has everything. Ok well it's a girly one, but for girly peeps it has everything. Today is just a rainy day and I've had to cancel all my plans and now, well, I'm just planning on making "citrus scrub" and things of the beauty/organicy/weirdy variety. AND ENJOY IT. And also hopefully finish some things on my list... So y'know that's what's up. Just thought I'd share what I'm up too...

The Current List. Do ALL THE THINGS! Do them with me.... please? :)




002. Walk the scenic route.
003. Give away the bus/gas money you saved, by walking, to someone who needs it.
007. Stay up all night.
008. Learn the cheesiest joke ever and tell it to strangers.
009. Climb a tree.


011. Pick flowers for your house.
012. Call your grandma, aunt, mom, or someone you care about but haven’t spoken too in a while.
013. Tell them you love them.
014. Volunteer your time for a cause you care about.
015. Instead of tossing your extra food, box it up and give it to someone hungry.
017. Sit in the park and write in your journal.
018. Leave extra pennies you’ve accumulated on the ground for someone else to find.


021. Wake up early, make a cup of tea, and watch the sunrise.
022. Make fresh squeezed orange juice.
025. Take a bubble bath.
026. Snuggle.
027. Plant something.
028. Instead of getting lost on the internet, get lost outside.
029. Say “yes” more.
030. Go through your clothes and give away what you don’t wear anymore. Better yet host a clothing swap.


032. Shop at the outdoor market this week instead of a grocery store.
033. Paint your toenails an obscene color.
034. Perfect the art of listening.
035. Next time it starts raining, go in to the nearest restaurant or bar and tell them you left your little black umbrella there last week. Whichever one they show you say “That’s it! Thank you so much!” 036. If you already have an umbrella, tell your friend how to get a new free umbrella….
037. Instead of watching TV, read a book. It can be a picture book.
038. If you have a friend’s birthday coming up, plan a present to make for them instead of picking out something to buy. MAKE IT.
039. Go tanning. Get a mani/pedi. Feel GREAT.
040. Blow bubbles. Pop them before they pop.




044. Decide to only say positive things about other people and yourself.
045. Draw hearts and smiley faces on everything.
046. Daydream. Own your fantasies. Figure out which ones you can turn into reality,


051. Next time you wear all black, make sure your socks are bright, silly and happy.


053. Open up your windows.
055. If it’s raining jump in puddles.


057. Look for a four leaf clover.
058. Go through your scrapbook, junk drawer, wallet, and decorate your refrigerator/journal/corkboard with special notes, stickers, ticket stubs, and all those cute little things you don’t want to throw away, but don’t know what to do with.
059. Stop someone on the street and compliment them on their shoes, hair, smile, etc. Mean it.
061. Wear that one shirt/dress/skirt you splurged on a year ago and still haven’t worn.


063. Send a postcard to a friend who doesn’t live in your city anymore.
064. Light a scented candle.
065. Put a flower in your hair.
068. Wear glitter.
070. Help someone carry groceries.
071. Tell a pregnant lady that you hope she has a good birth.
073. Make a list of 10 reasons your life is great.
074. Don’t be afraid to say “no” when you mean it.
078. Wash your sheets and shave your legs the same day. It feels so good!
079. Jump on the bed.
080. Meditate.
081. Ask someone for help when you need it.
082. Leave a big tip.
083. Take pictures of you and your friends in silly group shots. Sober.
086. Learn how to take a compliment. Smile, look the giver in the eye and say “thank you.” It’s that simple.
087. Instead of meeting your friends for a fancy dinner where everyone is going to fight over the bill, host a potluck.
088. Try to cut processed foods out of your diet.


091. Take a nap in the sunshine.
092. Learn how to purrrrrrrrrrr.
093. Walk around barefoot on the Earth.


095. Take a long, hot shower, preferably while singing off-key.
096. Next time you go out for a night on the town, draw mustaches on you and your friend’s fingers. See how many strangers will do it too.
097. Do yoga.
098. Write someone who inspires you a letter and tell them that they inspire you.


101. Make a recipe book of things I can make easily.
102. Make a list of things to keep in my fridge.
103. Write a letter to myself. A POSITIVE one.
104. Purge clothes.
105. Learn how to say “good morning” or “i missed you” or something in Bengali, Sri Lankan & Shona…
106. Play flute!
107. Paint.
 108. Buy thick tights. And earrings. And be artsy/fashiony so they won’t make you go “emergency” shopping.
110. Skype someone!
111. Go on nighttime adventures!
112. Learn how to do makeup for “situations”
113. Buy clothes for such “situations”
116. Print a bunch of pictures to bring back to school. Get ticky tacky thing for walls?


118. Do some SCHOLARSHIPS!!
121. Professional Clothing!!
122. Hair straightener??
126. GO CAMPING!!
127. Jump in a lake.
128. Bike to town.


131. UPDATE MY BLOG! (ok this is one of those that shall just stay here...)
Hey lovelies. (Nobody).

If you're reading this, you are indeed lovely. (Unless it's just me..)

Confidence, YAY!

Anywhooo-- this is a list update because I haven't written in ages and I've done quite a bit and a list is the best way to show such things that have happened...


002. Walk the scenic route.
003. Give away the bus/gas money you saved, by walking, to someone who needs it.
007. Stay up all night.
008. Learn the cheesiest joke ever and tell it to strangers.
009. Climb a tree.
010. Cut/dye/change your hair.  (This one might have to stay seeing as I just changed it BACK)
011. Pick flowers for your house.
012. Call your grandma, aunt, mom, or someone you care about but haven’t spoken too in a while.
013. Tell them you love them.
014. Volunteer your time for a cause you care about.
015. Instead of tossing your extra food, box it up and give it to someone hungry.
017. Sit in the park and write in your journal.
018. Leave extra pennies you’ve accumulated on the ground for someone else to find.
020. Reconnect with old friends.
021. Wake up early, make a cup of tea, and watch the sunrise.
022. Make fresh squeezed orange juice.
025. Take a bubble bath.
026. Snuggle.
027. Plant something.
028. Instead of getting lost on the internet, get lost outside.
029. Say “yes” more.
030. Go through your clothes and give away what you don’t wear anymore. Better yet host a clothing swap.
031. Embrace the moment. Do something you’ve been putting off.  (I think I'm gonna leave this on here though)
032. Shop at the outdoor market this week instead of a grocery store.
033. Paint your toenails an obscene color.
034. Perfect the art of listening.
035. Next time it starts raining, go in to the nearest restaurant or bar and tell them you left your little black umbrella there last week. Whichever one they show you say “That’s it! Thank you so much!” 036. If you already have an umbrella, tell your friend how to get a new free umbrella….
037. Instead of watching TV, read a book. It can be a picture book.
038. If you have a friend’s birthday coming up, plan a present to make for them instead of picking out something to buy. MAKE IT.
039. Go tanning. Get a mani/pedi. Feel GREAT.
040. Blow bubbles. Pop them before they pop.
041. Clean your room from top to bottom. Seriously.
042. Forgive someone who hurt you.
043. Go thrift store shopping. See how much you can get with $10. (Okay so I'll admit I had it in my head that it was $20 so I spent $20.09 and was HAPPY. So I'll y'know let it slide... Just this once)
044. Decide to only say positive things about other people and yourself.
045. Draw hearts and smiley faces on everything.
046. Daydream. Own your fantasies. Figure out which ones you can turn into reality,
047. Fly a kite.
051. Next time you wear all black, make sure your socks are bright, silly and happy.
052. Bake cookies and share them.
053. Open up your windows.
055. If it’s raining jump in puddles.
056. Appreciate beauty. It’s everywhere as soon as you start looking.
057. Look for a four leaf clover.
058. Go through your scrapbook, junk drawer, wallet, and decorate your refrigerator/journal/corkboard with special notes, stickers, ticket stubs, and all those cute little things you don’t want to throw away, but don’t know what to do with.
059. Stop someone on the street and compliment them on their shoes, hair, smile, etc. Mean it.
061. Wear that one shirt/dress/skirt you splurged on a year ago and still haven’t worn.
062. Smile at a non-creepy stranger.
063. Send a postcard to a friend who doesn’t live in your city anymore.
064. Light a scented candle.
065. Put a flower in your hair.
068. Wear glitter.
070. Help someone carry groceries.
071. Tell a pregnant lady that you hope she has a good birth.
073. Make a list of 10 reasons your life is great.
074. Don’t be afraid to say “no” when you mean it.
078. Wash your sheets and shave your legs the same day. It feels so good!
079. Jump on the bed.
080. Meditate.
081. Ask someone for help when you need it.
082. Leave a big tip.
083. Take pictures of you and your friends in silly group shots. Sober.
086. Learn how to take a compliment. Smile, look the giver in the eye and say “thank you.” It’s that simple.
087. Instead of meeting your friends for a fancy dinner where everyone is going to fight over the bill, host a potluck.
088. Try to cut processed foods out of your diet.
090. Realize that every hardship you have gone through has made you stronger and wiser.
091. Take a nap in the sunshine.
092. Learn how to purrrrrrrrrrr.
093. Walk around barefoot on the Earth.
094. Get your hands dirty.
095. Take a long, hot shower, preferably while singing off-key.
096. Next time you go out for a night on the town, draw mustaches on you and your friend’s fingers. See how many strangers will do it too.
097. Do yoga.
098. Write someone who inspires you a letter and tell them that they inspire you.
099. Remember: confidence is the sexiest thing a woman can wear. Wear it with pride.
100. Smile and say thank you for being alive.
101. Make a recipe book of things I can make easily.
102. Make a list of things to keep in my fridge.
103. Write a letter to myself. A POSITIVE one.
104. Purge clothes.
105. Learn how to say “good morning” or “i missed you” or something in Bengali, Sri Lankan & Shona…
106. Play flute!
107. Paint.
 108. Buy thick tights. And earrings. And be artsy/fashiony so they won’t make you go “emergency” shopping.
110. Skype someone!
111. Go on nighttime adventures!
112. Learn how to do makeup for “situations”
113. Buy clothes for such “situations”
116. Print a bunch of pictures to bring back to school. Get ticky tacky thing for walls?
117. Learn to love my hair :) Play around with it and do cool things…
118. Do some SCHOLARSHIPS!!
121. Professional Clothing!!
122. Hair straightener??
126. GO CAMPING!!
127. Jump in a lake.
128. Bike to town.
130. Jump on the trampoline.
131. UPDATE MY BLOG! (ok this is one of those that shall just stay here...)

Thursday, May 10, 2012

WARNING! GUY CRUSH BLOG NOW FLEE!

Soo... Read the title. Just in case.

Honestly I had my first more serious relationship-thing this year. We weren't even officially dating but it was just more grownup. Not kid stuff.

I had one relationship-thingy previously (I have relationship definition issues if you haven't noticed) and it was always so serious. On again off again serious deep talks with emotions. When it ended I was so torn up and crying and crap but then y'know I moved on. We're exes and friends.

But now that it's over again... Well, this time it's so different because it was serious but I know will be friends when uni is in session again it's just this time it's the casual easy flirty physical (sorry guys) and like all the other stuff. I just feel empty without talking to him and I miss---

I just feel empty?

Terrible. So terrible. I shouldn't still be writing all this stuff and complaining and being so freaking self-involved. I'm sorry.


I mean to just say a sweet: I miss you.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Update-y Blog..

Hey! What's up? When was the last time we just... talked.. Been a while eh? Like, ever, on this blog.

So. To remedy: talk, talk, talk, talk, talk. Done.

No seriously, a few things have changed in my life recently:

1. I started work today. Not my "all summer" job, just the job I'm taking before my real one starts.
2. I officially have been out of school for a month now. Classes have been over anyways.
3. It's starting to look more spring like here!
4. I'm still going strong on my "eat better" campaign...
5. My friends graduate in 9 days! NINE!!
aaaandddd:
6. My best friend gets home in a month from yesterday!! (not that I'm keeping track or anything...)

So yah. That's what's up. In summery (haha, I joke): work, no more school, spring, health, friends! Aren't those all things to be happy for? I sure think so!

Let me know in the comments what you think are worthwhile things to take note of and be excited for :)

Thoughts..

So this is one of those thinking-as-I'm-writing blogs. Ye be warned. Only those who are willing to subject themselves to the oddity that lives in the world inside my head.

Hmmm. So I'm not really "depressed" per se. I'm just not happy where I am. I mean, I'm fully aware that I should be happy. Don't get me wrong. This is all very -- how do I say ---- "#firstworldproblems" applicable. And I know and accept that. Accept that I shouldn't care, or no, that I shouldn't find fault and issue with the life that I should in actuality be grateful for...

That was a lot. Take a moment. Good? Ok. So here's the deal, I just don't feel like I "fit" with my life. My life when I live with my family that is. It's just not "me" and I'm trying to accept that this is nobody's fault and that y'know my family is fantastic... just not for me. But, the sad truth of the matter is that deep down - and sometimes not so deep - I blame my parents.

They're not understanding. But that's not to say that it's completely my fault I was raised in a way that speaking your mind and expressing yourself was always encouraged... It's just that around here I don't fit very well with the way everyone else's expression works...

I don't know if any of that makes sense or if you can relate... I hope for your sake - if you can relate - that this feeling of displacement encourages hope. You're not alone.




Or maybe that's just something I'm saying to encourage myself that "you" who relates even exits.

Nah. Let's go with option 1. That's it for rambling thoughts, sorry this was so poorly written & altogether depressing. Next time lets make it happy yes? *cue talking to self?*

Sunday, May 6, 2012

An updated To-Do list...


So here's what I still need to do... Do you guys want to do this? I think all of these are good things to just do. Actually take advantage of them and DO them. Force yourself whenever you're bored to get up and actually DO something. But something good. Not just y'know walking downstairs or something...

Note: I might start adding things. As I have with #130&131. I think this is good so that I can look back and see everything that I've accomplished this summer and have it not be over in the first 3 weeks or something y'know?




002. Walk the scenic route.
003. Give away the bus/gas money you saved, by walking, to someone who needs it.
007. Stay up all night.
008. Learn the cheesiest joke ever and tell it to strangers.
009. Climb a tree.
010. Cut/dye/change your hair.  (This one might have to stay seeing as I just changed it BACK)
011. Pick flowers for your house.
012. Call your grandma, aunt, mom, or someone you care about but haven’t spoken too in a while.
013. Tell them you love them.
014. Volunteer your time for a cause you care about.
015. Instead of tossing your extra food, box it up and give it to someone hungry.
017. Sit in the park and write in your journal.
018. Leave extra pennies you’ve accumulated on the ground for someone else to find.
020. Reconnect with old friends.
021. Wake up early, make a cup of tea, and watch the sunrise.
022. Make fresh squeezed orange juice.
025. Take a bubble bath.
026. Snuggle.
027. Plant something.
028. Instead of getting lost on the internet, get lost outside.
029. Say “yes” more.
030. Go through your clothes and give away what you don’t wear anymore. Better yet host a clothing swap.
031. Embrace the moment. Do something you’ve been putting off.  (I think I'm gonna leave this on here though)
032. Shop at the outdoor market this week instead of a grocery store.
033. Paint your toenails an obscene color.
034. Perfect the art of listening.
035. Next time it starts raining, go in to the nearest restaurant or bar and tell them you left your little black umbrella there last week. Whichever one they show you say “That’s it! Thank you so much!” 036. If you already have an umbrella, tell your friend how to get a new free umbrella….
037. Instead of watching TV, read a book. It can be a picture book.
038. If you have a friend’s birthday coming up, plan a present to make for them instead of picking out something to buy. MAKE IT.
039. Go tanning. Get a mani/pedi. Feel GREAT.
040. Blow bubbles. Pop them before they pop.
041. Clean your room from top to bottom. Seriously.
042. Forgive someone who hurt you.
043. Go thrift store shopping. See how much you can get with $10.
044. Decide to only say positive things about other people and yourself.
045. Draw hearts and smiley faces on everything.
046. Daydream. Own your fantasies. Figure out which ones you can turn into reality,
047. Fly a kite.
051. Next time you wear all black, make sure your socks are bright, silly and happy.
052. Bake cookies and share them.
053. Open up your windows.
055. If it’s raining jump in puddles.
056. Appreciate beauty. It’s everywhere as soon as you start looking.
057. Look for a four leaf clover.
058. Go through your scrapbook, junk drawer, wallet, and decorate your refrigerator/journal/corkboard with special notes, stickers, ticket stubs, and all those cute little things you don’t want to throw away, but don’t know what to do with.
059. Stop someone on the street and compliment them on their shoes, hair, smile, etc. Mean it.
061. Wear that one shirt/dress/skirt you splurged on a year ago and still haven’t worn.
062. Smile at a non-creepy stranger.
063. Send a postcard to a friend who doesn’t live in your city anymore.
064. Light a scented candle.
065. Put a flower in your hair.
068. Wear glitter.
070. Help someone carry groceries.
071. Tell a pregnant lady that you hope she has a good birth.
073. Make a list of 10 reasons your life is great.
074. Don’t be afraid to say “no” when you mean it.
078. Wash your sheets and shave your legs the same day. It feels so good!
079. Jump on the bed.
080. Meditate.
081. Ask someone for help when you need it.
082. Leave a big tip.
083. Take pictures of you and your friends in silly group shots. Sober.
086. Learn how to take a compliment. Smile, look the giver in the eye and say “thank you.” It’s that simple.
087. Instead of meeting your friends for a fancy dinner where everyone is going to fight over the bill, host a potluck.
088. Try to cut processed foods out of your diet.
090. Realize that every hardship you have gone through has made you stronger and wiser.
091. Take a nap in the sunshine.
092. Learn how to purrrrrrrrrrr.
093. Walk around barefoot on the Earth.
094. Get your hands dirty.
095. Take a long, hot shower, preferably while singing off-key.
096. Next time you go out for a night on the town, draw mustaches on you and your friend’s fingers. See how many strangers will do it too.
097. Do yoga.
098. Write someone who inspires you a letter and tell them that they inspire you.
099. Remember: confidence is the sexiest thing a woman can wear. Wear it with pride.
100. Smile and say thank you for being alive.
101. Make a recipe book of things I can make easily.
102. Make a list of things to keep in my fridge.
103. Write a letter to myself. A POSITIVE one.
104. Purge clothes.
105. Learn how to say “good morning” or “i missed you” or something in Bengali, Sri Lankan & Shona…
106. Play flute!
107. Paint.
 108. Buy thick tights. And earrings. And be artsy/fashiony so they won’t make you go “emergency” shopping.
110. Skype someone!
111. Go on nighttime adventures!
112. Learn how to do makeup for “situations”
113. Buy clothes for such “situations”
116. Print a bunch of pictures to bring back to school. Get ticky tacky thing for walls?
117. Learn to love my hair :) Play around with it and do cool things…
118. Do some SCHOLARSHIPS!!
121. Professional Clothing!!
122. Hair straightener??
126. GO CAMPING!!
127. Jump in a lake.
128. Bike to town.
130. Jump on the trampoline.
131. UPDATE MY BLOG! (ok this is one of those that shall just stay here...)


So there's a lot of things that I want to do this summer and I found a bit of list online somewhere... I'd link it because it was a cool site but I honestly have no idea where it disappeared off to. That happens sometimes. And sometimes comes a lot.

Anyways here goes. Warning: there's a bit of weird specific stuff in here so I took that bit out...
(Also: crossed out are the ones I've done. Next time they'll be gone.)

001. Pick up that dirty penny, put it in your pocket, and know it will bring you good luck.
002. Walk the scenic route.
003. Give away the bus/gas money you saved, by walking, to someone who needs it.
004. Dance to bad music just because it’s playing.
005. Wave back at children when they wave at you. 
006. Go to bed early. 
007. Stay up all night.
008. Learn the cheesiest joke ever and tell it to strangers.
009. Climb a tree.
010. Cut/dye/change your hair.  (This one might have to stay seeing as I just changed it BACK)
011. Pick flowers for your house.
012. Call your grandma, aunt, mom, or someone you care about but haven’t spoken too in a while.
013. Tell them you love them.
014. Volunteer your time for a cause you care about.
015. Instead of tossing your extra food, box it up and give it to someone hungry.

017. Sit in the park and write in your journal.
018. Leave extra pennies you’ve accumulated on the ground for someone else to find.
019. Make dinner for your family 
020. Reconnect with old friends.
021. Wake up early, make a cup of tea, and watch the sunrise.
022. Make fresh squeezed orange juice.


025. Take a bubble bath.
026. Snuggle.
027. Plant something.
028. Instead of getting lost on the internet, get lost outside.
029. Say “yes” more.
030. Go through your clothes and give away what you don’t wear anymore. Better yet host a clothing swap.
031. Embrace the moment. Do something you’ve been putting off.  (I think I'm gonna leave this on here though)
032. Shop at the outdoor market this week instead of a grocery store.
033. Paint your toenails an obscene color.
034. Perfect the art of listening.
035. Next time it starts raining, go in to the nearest restaurant or bar and tell them you left your little black umbrella there last week. Whichever one they show you say “That’s it! Thank you so much!” 036. If you already have an umbrella, tell your friend how to get a new free umbrella….
037. Instead of watching TV, read a book. It can be a picture book.
038. If you have a friend’s birthday coming up, plan a present to make for them instead of picking out something to buy. MAKE IT.
039. Go tanning. Get a mani/pedi. Feel GREAT.
040. Blow bubbles. Pop them before they pop.
041. Clean your room from top to bottom. Seriously.
042. Forgive someone who hurt you.
043. Go thrift store shopping. See how much you can get with $10.
044. Decide to only say positive things about other people and yourself.
045. Draw hearts and smiley faces on everything.
046. Daydream. Own your fantasies. Figure out which ones you can turn into reality,
047. Fly a kite.
048. Get rid of old books… 
049. Reach out to someone you did those silly things with and remind them of the shared memory. 
050. Breathe in. Breathe out. Repeat. 
051. Next time you wear all black, make sure your socks are bright, silly and happy.
052. Bake cookies and share them.
053. Open up your windows.
054. Get off your ass and get outside. 
055. If it’s raining jump in puddles.
056. Appreciate beauty. It’s everywhere as soon as you start looking.
057. Look for a four leaf clover.
058. Go through your scrapbook, junk drawer, wallet, and decorate your refrigerator/journal/corkboard with special notes, stickers, ticket stubs, and all those cute little things you don’t want to throw away, but don’t know what to do with.
059. Stop someone on the street and compliment them on their shoes, hair, smile, etc. Mean it.
060. Embrace your inner-dork. Let your inner-dork become an outer-dork and don’t apologize for it. 
061. Wear that one shirt/dress/skirt you splurged on a year ago and still haven’t worn.
062. Smile at a non-creepy stranger.
063. Send a postcard to a friend who doesn’t live in your city anymore.
064. Light a scented candle.
065. Put a flower in your hair.

067. Ride your bike. 
068. Wear glitter.
069. Make lists for people again :)
070. Help someone carry groceries.
071. Tell a pregnant lady that you hope she has a good birth.

073. Make a list of 10 reasons your life is great.
074. Don’t be afraid to say “no” when you mean it.
075. Take care of a sick friend. 
076. Stay up late and talk for hours with a good friend. 

078. Wash your sheets and shave your legs the same day. It feels so good!
079. Jump on the bed.
080. Meditate.
081. Ask someone for help when you need it.
082. Leave a big tip.
083. Take pictures of you and your friends in silly group shots. Sober.
084. Next time someone asks you for help, do it. 
085. Eat chocolate. Good chocolate. 
086. Learn how to take a compliment. Smile, look the giver in the eye and say “thank you.” It’s that simple.
087. Instead of meeting your friends for a fancy dinner where everyone is going to fight over the bill, host a potluck.
088. Try to cut processed foods out of your diet.
089. If you want to cry, then let it out. 
090. Realize that every hardship you have gone through has made you stronger and wiser.
091. Take a nap in the sunshine.
092. Learn how to purrrrrrrrrrr.
093. Walk around barefoot on the Earth.
094. Get your hands dirty.
095. Take a long, hot shower, preferably while singing off-key.
096. Next time you go out for a night on the town, draw mustaches on you and your friend’s fingers. See how many strangers will do it too.
097. Do yoga.
098. Write someone who inspires you a letter and tell them that they inspire you.
099. Remember: confidence is the sexiest thing a woman can wear. Wear it with pride.
100. Smile and say thank you for being alive.
101. Make a recipe book of things I can make easily.
102. Make a list of things to keep in my fridge.
103. Write a letter to myself. A POSITIVE one.
104. Purge clothes.
105. Learn how to say “good morning” or “i missed you” or something in Bengali, Sri Lankan & Shona…
106. Play flute!
107. Paint.
 108. Buy thick tights. And earrings. And be artsy/fashiony so they won’t make you go “emergency” shopping.
109. Go on a lonnnnggggg bike ride. 
 110. Skype someone!
111. Go on nighttime adventures!
112. Learn how to do makeup for “situations”
 113. Buy clothes for such “situations”


116. Print a bunch of pictures to bring back to school. Get ticky tacky thing for walls?
117. Learn to love my hair :) Play around with it and do cool things…
118. Do some SCHOLARSHIPS!!
119. Watch Fight Club 
120. Watch Kill Bill 1 & 2 
 121. Professional Clothing!!
122. Hair straightener??


125. Go on a walk. 
126. GO CAMPING!!
127. Jump in a lake.
128. Bike to town.
129. Get a job.
Btw. Try not to overfeed the fish. They'll get fat.
I like it when nobody's watching. That's when I pretend like everyone's watching. Does that make sense? I feel like a lot of the things that I think don't. Oh well.
if I were indifferent
                                shoes,
i'd walk away from here.

if I were a better walker
i'd be there already.

where? why there.
just there.
nowhere.
not here, but there.

not death, just gone
                                (away from here)
just life amongst my own.

not angsty teen,
or preachy elder,
just life amongst my own.

if i were indifferent
                               shoes,
i'd make better puns.

or maybe i'd make none at all.

who knows.